WHY?

There is no answer to "why" yet I can't stop asking God for the answer. I know he knows and all I can do is trust in his word. His word is what keeps us going when we don't want to go anymore. I'm not saying I know your pain, I don't, but my heart hurts for you. Sometimes I can't handle the pain I see, I feel so broken and helpless. That's where I have been lately.....broken.

I find myself crying often. I was watching the story Mary and Martha on HBO the other night and I had to turn it off. I could not watch the funeral of Mary's son. 

Hilary Swank stars as Mary and Brenda Blethyn stars as Martha, an American interior designer and British housewife who have little in common apart from the one thing they wish they didn't. When malaria strikes, the lives of these very different women change forever. They forge a deep friendship and embark on an epic journey of self-discovery to Africa, dedicating themselves to the cause of malaria prevention. Beginning to rebuild their lives, they show how ordinary people can make a difference and inspire positive change in the process. Enlisting the help of Mary's estranged father, a former politico, the two women beseech both the powers that be and ordinary people to get involved, realizing a shared responsibility to all the world's children. Written by HBO

I read a post of someone I follow who recently had a miscarriage. I read a post from another blogger I follow who lost her son 4 years ago and now her extended family lost a teenage boy. I didn't even know what to say. How many times in my lifetime will I have to say "I'm so sorry for your loss." I desperately want to heal the broker hearted.

I know I have been here before in this place of feeling empty and broken. I know that watching the news about the tragic bombings in Boston hit me hard and then to see the sadness in the explosion in Texas I often find myself crawling deep into a hole that I don't want to crawl out of. It makes doing daily things harder for me. I feel restless and want to run away. I will bounce back but life changes us and I wonder when I won't bounce back.

I cannot express in words how amazing I think you are for living through the worst that life can bring you. I know that God has a special place for you in Heaven. ((HUGS)) Now if my heavy heart can take away some of your pain than I will gladly carry it for you.

I am often comforted by the words of two woman who are amazing writers. If you are in need of comfort I suggest you follow Laura at Moments of Pause and Anna at An Inch of Gray. Take the time and go back to read posts from the past, you will find comfort in their words. 

Jesus Comforts His Disciples 

John 14:1-4 (NIV)

14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. ² My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? ³ And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. ⁴ You know the way to the place where I am going.”

If you are here to request a handkerchief for yourself or someone you know please send an email to dpucci9972@gmail.com  I will need a full name, address and a brief description of who passed away. If you have a blog I can link to I would appreciate that also. I am here for you.